- Jun 19, 2017
I enjoyed reading your your post, Macy. Relate to so much of it. I too was not diagnosed until later (30's) so I suffer the effects of years of undiagnosis. I rely on alarm clocks, lists, and notes. I'm an art teacher so fortunately I have found a career that suits my personality, and find the structure of school in general suits my academic leanings. Nevertheless, I once put a piece of bread in the toaster-over and fell asleep--awoke to see bright orange flames filling the toaster. Scared the heck out of me and i got rid of it. I also once left a gas burner on all day. I only own self-off irons for the same reason. Adderall and Ritalin cause me too much anxiety so I can't take them. Wellbutrin has helped. I am an INFJ and have ADD (without the H)...the reason I think there CAN be (though not always) correspondence between INFJ/ADD is because my form off ADD is the inattentive type (According to Dr. Amen's "types"). I've always been in my head as an introvert enjoying hyper-focused pleasant thoughts (or miserable when hyperfocused on a worry) and driven crazy/feel restless the rest of the time as thoughts zoom, zip, and bounce around like the "scan mode' on a radio. I once lost a set of keys--found in a bag in the staff refrigerator 3 years later! and numerous times have received--from altruistic strangers--my checkbook in the mail, once my licence, once a pocket bible. I have my name and address/phone on almost everything in the case I lose it. Most recently I'm benefitting from being in a 12 step program. The emphasis on living in the present moment and not "fighting" life, accepting where I am is OK, etc has lifted some burdens from my nearly-always guilt-ridden shoulders. thanks for listening.I doubt that all INFJs have clinically relevant ADHD. That said, dominant Ni and inferior Se probably does have some similarities in appearance with ADHD-PI. The question is clinical relevance. If someone can function well enough to keep a job and maintain satisfactory relationships, then perhaps they are just differently gifted, and a diagnosis of ADHD may be unwarranted. However, there are those of us who are a danger to ourselves and our families when we are unmedicated. I have no issues with long term planning, decision making, or impulsivity. The thing that gets me is moment to moment functioning. I don't get distracted by external stimuli, I get distracted by the workings of my own mind. I cannot keep track of things in my immediate physical environment. I zone out and cannot remember whether or not I completed an important task. So I waste a lot of time checking myself. Yet I still somehow miss important things. I am not hyperactive at all, except in my mind... it will zoom in and hyperfocus on whatever concept I am interested in, while the rest of me operates on autopilot. I forget where I am going and why I am there. I look for things like my glasses or my phone when they are already in my hand...
I wasn't diagnosed until I was an adult. It embarrassed me to admit that I really had a problem. But after I made a mindless mistake that could have been very dangerous, it scared me enough to get medicated. Meds are a long way from perfect. I still struggle with being spaced out and unaware of my surroundings. I still have to set up reminders on my phone for important things, or they won't happen. Meds help me function better on some levels, but I think my ability to commit things to long term memory is much worse. Or maybe I am just getting old.
In my opinion there is a huge difference between ADHD-PI and classic ADHD. I hate that the term ADD is no longer used, because ADHD-PI does not describe what I have, and it sounds misleading IMO.
I am of the personal opinion that classic ADHD is much more likely to correspond to ESTP or ESFP personality types... sensory types with high energy who notice everything in their environment. Completely different from Ni dominant types who live in their minds and lack awareness of the environment.