HelloItsMe
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I hate myself a lot. Like for years the main words repeatedly going round my head are 'i hate myself, i hate myself', 'stay away from people', 'im sorry'. I know loads of people dont like themselves/hate themselves, but do any of you feel it really strongly?
Every time I socialise, I can't help but go out when the plan is easy - fomo? - and i also cant help but talk usually, I sound confident probably, I sound like I like myself probably. Then the second I walk away this shitting dread comes along, 'fuck, fuck, what have you done, why did you talk again? why cant you just keep quiet? you worded things the wrong way, you talked about the wrong things, you must've been annoying people, get over yourself, i hate myself, i hate myself' - and that's every day of my life.
I know others must feel the same way, I just never get to talk to people who feel it as strongly as me, I guess its personal and/or people might be too nervous to talk about something like that. I think the purpose of this post is to try to start a conversation, people who feel this way might need it too. Why do we feel it this strongly? Are we as bad as we think we are? Why do you think you hate yourself so much? Is it obvious to you? Why do you think other people don't hate themselves as much? Is there any way to run away from this feeling? I'm tired.
Every time I socialise, I can't help but go out when the plan is easy - fomo? - and i also cant help but talk usually, I sound confident probably, I sound like I like myself probably. Then the second I walk away this shitting dread comes along, 'fuck, fuck, what have you done, why did you talk again? why cant you just keep quiet? you worded things the wrong way, you talked about the wrong things, you must've been annoying people, get over yourself, i hate myself, i hate myself' - and that's every day of my life.
I know others must feel the same way, I just never get to talk to people who feel it as strongly as me, I guess its personal and/or people might be too nervous to talk about something like that. I think the purpose of this post is to try to start a conversation, people who feel this way might need it too. Why do we feel it this strongly? Are we as bad as we think we are? Why do you think you hate yourself so much? Is it obvious to you? Why do you think other people don't hate themselves as much? Is there any way to run away from this feeling? I'm tired.
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