Its coming up to the end of the year and I am here contemplating my future and planning my next move.
This year was my break. After the events of last year, I felt that I needed to spend this year focusing on my mental health as well as my psychical health and getting back into what I enjoyed doing.
I know what I love doing, its just the matter of whether I would be able to make it into the art and film industry or not. The art industry receives a heavy bashing here in New Zealand, and there isn't much of a demand for it, which brings me to my fork on the road. My other passion is food science, in a country where obesity has become an epidemic, I realize that this would be is a huge potential for me to become a dietitian.
However my nightmare would be for me to abandon my dreams, to me it would be the same as death. My dream is to become a film director, however pursuing science will guarantee that I have a strong finical foundation to work on.
My father and mother want me to gain my BOS (bachelor in science).
I want to do art. However I failed at art school two years in a row, its only recently that I found that there was a serious flaw in the way how art is taught in academics, that's way I have decided to not continue my tertiary studies.
Teachers expect quantity over quality. Art has its roots in emotion, science has its roots in logic. Academics and art do not go hand in hand together, one of the main reasons why artists attend university is to learn how to improve their technique, exhibit and being noticed by people in the art industry. Its more about learning rather than gaining a piece of paper, the pressure and time restrictions of assignments is ridiculous. The art industry relies on port folio work over qualifications. Getting into the industry is like entering a war zone and the pay sucks.
New Zealand needs medical practitioners and the salary in one of the highest in the country (starting at $48,000 a year). However I don't want this to hamper my dreams of becoming a film director, I want to use it as a finical foundation until I break my way through. I never attended school during my teens so I don't have a solid, basic, source of knowledge in science. This will have to be learnt through doing my tertiary education.
Being a medical practitioner is almost a complete polar opposite of being a film director, but its better than being a bum living off benefits. I know of other film directors that worked in medicine before film. How they did it? I have no idea.
My mother wants me to forget about art, my father wants me to keep working hard until I find my lucky break. I'm confused, and worried that I don't have enough knowledge or brains to pass the papers ahead and up failing again.
This year was my break. After the events of last year, I felt that I needed to spend this year focusing on my mental health as well as my psychical health and getting back into what I enjoyed doing.
I know what I love doing, its just the matter of whether I would be able to make it into the art and film industry or not. The art industry receives a heavy bashing here in New Zealand, and there isn't much of a demand for it, which brings me to my fork on the road. My other passion is food science, in a country where obesity has become an epidemic, I realize that this would be is a huge potential for me to become a dietitian.
However my nightmare would be for me to abandon my dreams, to me it would be the same as death. My dream is to become a film director, however pursuing science will guarantee that I have a strong finical foundation to work on.
My father and mother want me to gain my BOS (bachelor in science).
I want to do art. However I failed at art school two years in a row, its only recently that I found that there was a serious flaw in the way how art is taught in academics, that's way I have decided to not continue my tertiary studies.
Teachers expect quantity over quality. Art has its roots in emotion, science has its roots in logic. Academics and art do not go hand in hand together, one of the main reasons why artists attend university is to learn how to improve their technique, exhibit and being noticed by people in the art industry. Its more about learning rather than gaining a piece of paper, the pressure and time restrictions of assignments is ridiculous. The art industry relies on port folio work over qualifications. Getting into the industry is like entering a war zone and the pay sucks.
New Zealand needs medical practitioners and the salary in one of the highest in the country (starting at $48,000 a year). However I don't want this to hamper my dreams of becoming a film director, I want to use it as a finical foundation until I break my way through. I never attended school during my teens so I don't have a solid, basic, source of knowledge in science. This will have to be learnt through doing my tertiary education.
Being a medical practitioner is almost a complete polar opposite of being a film director, but its better than being a bum living off benefits. I know of other film directors that worked in medicine before film. How they did it? I have no idea.
My mother wants me to forget about art, my father wants me to keep working hard until I find my lucky break. I'm confused, and worried that I don't have enough knowledge or brains to pass the papers ahead and up failing again.
