Recent content by dj-elsa

u r thourough!!! yes it was VERY hard to think of it, especially since i've never been in that position nor married good point, btw, it is up to the parties to decide

i call it going blank i have felt this lots lots LOTS throughout life and realize that the best way for me to feel more "there" is to be blank, to delve into the ghost part. and that lets me walk in their skin, really feel them out, almost literally, which is where i think lots of my...

this is how i see music, too. literally, i see it. like patterns. and then i relate those patterns to scenes. those scenes create a story. the story elicits a mood. that's how i convey my feelings. i really like ableton and other programs like those for music because you can see your...

because i don't want it to end. i don't want to walk away. why? because it's hard enough to find people i find even interesting enough to want a superficial friendship with, and he's the connection to years n years (15 years) of my scattered life. we've been friends that long, and over...

what if he himself is very attractive and could have anybody he wants, also? so it's not as if he's being "allowed" special privileges, and in fact i love his body, i LOVe his bodyandhe insists we spend "quality time" doing stuff so, see, he's not some dog. but are you saying that since...

it's adaptation, really, right? u could c it like that, if that's your view of the world it's not mine. if there's something i can do to make someone i care about feel more comfortable, i am ok with doing that ultimately, i call it being adapt. survival of the species that are able to adapt.

totally not weird. and i totally couldn't care less if i fit in or don't, if most people like me or they don't, or even if people like my music or DJing or if they don't but for this one person, i DO care. i hear it every day, most people do have that sense of self-consciousness that i so...

what if i "behave" ? your response extends far beyond my simple problem of my Beast. what if i have to "behave" just long enough to accomplish my ultimate goal? for example, i'd rather be living in a hut with few material possessions other than what i need to make more tracks n art, very...

first example: He, or theBeast, I'll call him, is very sociable and friendly. he owned a bar, has worked in music for like 15 yrs. So when i hang out with him, sometimes i have to meet new people. I LOATHE mtg new people, usually. Beyond the polite, hi my name is..., I get so bored with...

so if i do stuff to SHOW him i care... so i had to survey my actions and realize that it was my own actions that were affecting HIS behavior, so what if i make a real effort to do stuff that shows i care, vs. doing what i want n not realizing how it comes off? hence learning enough social...

it's what i do to make himNOT love me, u see? lol i don't do stuff to make him love me, but i think stuff i do repels him such as, i keep talking about moving to NY, which i plan to do, June 2011, so he's not sure what that means, from what he said i don't form emotional attachments, m0stly...

so when u go on a date do u dress nice-ish or go unbathed? this is how i see it, either i can continue to let my personality dictate the ways in which my life will lack, or i can let my personality's ability to digest and assimilate new information, such as social intelligence info, to make my...

aliens could be the pinnacle of existence ur belief that aliens are the pinnacle well, using the same type of logic as any other post, saying that it's possible that any outcome is possible (such as a dog mawls a baby's face instead of being a seeing eye dog) then maybe aliens are far more...

btw, u said you fall in love and are happy every time you do, which implies it wasn't just a one-time thing for you? unless with same person, over n over again the love i speak of transcends time, and in fact is intensified and ingrained more deeply with time. such as, the more time we spend...

well, you understood per the question you asked me. In essence, yes, it'd almost be trickery or brainwashing. except just saw, you are istj dragon said he/she'd not claim to not use the information my first language is spanish