soulseeker
Permanent Fixture
- MBTI
- INFJ
ok......i'm really really really really sorry for posting almost ALL of my problems
I don't have anyone else to say it to....
because NO ONE can understand me like a fellow INFJ can....
and nobody even wants to understand me.....
so here is another problem.....
last school year, wasn't the best school year i had....it is THE WORSE school year I HAD..
i've gone through a lot of fights (with friends, classmates, schoolmates, etc..)
but i've been through those with a friend who didn't leave me and was always there for me...
so it wasn't that hard
but......................
last school year, i had new friends but i'm still with that friend who didn't leave me. but then something happened and i'm left ALONE....
which means...... I HAD TO DEAL WITH IT ALL BY MYSELF...
WOW NO ONE!!!! AND I MEAN NO ONE KNEW WHAT I'VE GONE THROUGH....
I WAS DEPRESSED.......AND IT HAD MAJOR EFFECTS TO ME..
AND NOW...... I'M SCARED TO GO BACK THERE......
i realized how hard it is NOT to have a friend......all along i had MANY MANY MANY FRIENDS........suddenly.....
POOF!!!!!!! it's ALL GONE... ALL OF A SUDDEN......
BOOM!!!!
I'M LEFT ALONE.....and i had a lot of school problems(friends)
they all backstabbed me.....and i didn't know what to do....
i had to BE STRONG ( I DID LOOK STRONG....I REALLY DID LOOK STRONG........BUT THE THING WITH THAT IS.....I JUST LOOKED..... STRONG....BUT I'M NOT.... I HAD TO HIDE IT)
until now..... I CAN'T forget that feeling....... I STILL HAVE THAT IN ME...I JUST WANNA CRY.....I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.......i just wanna get LOST......away.......away....
BUT I CAN'T..........
i had a new friend.. and she's THE ONLY friend i could trust right now...but she has a group of friends and i can hang out with them...
but the problem is.. i can't just hang out with them ALL THE TIME.......
because i should also respect their privacy.....
so........ i know i have to wait till i find someone who could really be a friend to me....
this girl that i could trust.. she REALLY is a friend..... and a TRUE friend (i could really say that) but..... she has a best friend and a close friend.... so i can't be one of them that easily....
i know that it's good that i found someone to be with BUT.....
i'm used to someone to be my best friend... to hold on to... to count on.....
and not someone who has a best friend but i can hold on to and count on and trust etc...
it's A LOT DIFFERENT........
i just can't take away my feelings of being scared, nervous, and all.....
i just wanna hide and die......
*sorry for the long thread i just need to type it out......
I don't have anyone else to say it to....
because NO ONE can understand me like a fellow INFJ can....
and nobody even wants to understand me.....
so here is another problem.....
last school year, wasn't the best school year i had....it is THE WORSE school year I HAD..
i've gone through a lot of fights (with friends, classmates, schoolmates, etc..)
but i've been through those with a friend who didn't leave me and was always there for me...
so it wasn't that hard
but......................
last school year, i had new friends but i'm still with that friend who didn't leave me. but then something happened and i'm left ALONE....
which means...... I HAD TO DEAL WITH IT ALL BY MYSELF...
WOW NO ONE!!!! AND I MEAN NO ONE KNEW WHAT I'VE GONE THROUGH....
I WAS DEPRESSED.......AND IT HAD MAJOR EFFECTS TO ME..
AND NOW...... I'M SCARED TO GO BACK THERE......
i realized how hard it is NOT to have a friend......all along i had MANY MANY MANY FRIENDS........suddenly.....
POOF!!!!!!! it's ALL GONE... ALL OF A SUDDEN......
BOOM!!!!
I'M LEFT ALONE.....and i had a lot of school problems(friends)
they all backstabbed me.....and i didn't know what to do....
i had to BE STRONG ( I DID LOOK STRONG....I REALLY DID LOOK STRONG........BUT THE THING WITH THAT IS.....I JUST LOOKED..... STRONG....BUT I'M NOT.... I HAD TO HIDE IT)
until now..... I CAN'T forget that feeling....... I STILL HAVE THAT IN ME...I JUST WANNA CRY.....I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.......i just wanna get LOST......away.......away....
BUT I CAN'T..........
i had a new friend.. and she's THE ONLY friend i could trust right now...but she has a group of friends and i can hang out with them...
but the problem is.. i can't just hang out with them ALL THE TIME.......
because i should also respect their privacy.....
so........ i know i have to wait till i find someone who could really be a friend to me....
this girl that i could trust.. she REALLY is a friend..... and a TRUE friend (i could really say that) but..... she has a best friend and a close friend.... so i can't be one of them that easily....
i know that it's good that i found someone to be with BUT.....
i'm used to someone to be my best friend... to hold on to... to count on.....
and not someone who has a best friend but i can hold on to and count on and trust etc...
it's A LOT DIFFERENT........
i just can't take away my feelings of being scared, nervous, and all.....
i just wanna hide and die......
*sorry for the long thread i just need to type it out......