I was watching this movie last night and one of the characters wasn’t as introspective and they just seemed so in tune with themselves. I noticed everyone gravitated towards this person because they probably were enamoured by that as well and I’ve met so many people throughout my life who are like this and people love them.
I don’t know how to describe it but people who are like this are very human. They’re very real and in touch with themselves and I realize they are also less introspective. Not necessarily extroverted, but they just don’t overthink or think about others ulterior motives and I’m enamoured by people like this as well.
I feel even as a kid I had trouble making friends because I always had my own wall and was wary of others. Sometimes I felt being wary made me feel like a bad person? I would think thoughts like,”Why aren’t I as trusting and friendly as this person”. People would sense that as well and I wasn’t someone who interested them. I was always the observer, and being an observer takes me out of my elements and I’m not really “living”.
Now I have tried being vulnerable on purpose and letting my guard down to build connections. But I can see people just naturally gravitate towards those who are effortlessly vulnerable. There’s something admirable about it. I’m just not that person. I’m prudent, cautious, more cynical than optimistic. An example in film/literature. I feel like Katnis Everdeen (introspective ) and highly relate to her character while admiring Peta (less introspective) and everyone around PETA likes him as well. Similarly, I’ve weeded out bad people I’ve met and my friends always made me feel negative for seeing that others to the point I’ve thought so many times I wasn’t intuitive and able to see bad things in others.
Sometimes I wish I could just go on auto pilot. Being in “thinking” mode has helped me lots of times yes, but honestly sometimes I wish I wasn’t so I could be involved like everyone else. Maybe being so wary and cautious is actually just negative. I wish I could live life on auto pilot and just feel human for once. Being so introspective and in my head makes me feel like I’ve lost out on a lot. Wondering if anyone has ever felt like this?
I don’t know how to describe it but people who are like this are very human. They’re very real and in touch with themselves and I realize they are also less introspective. Not necessarily extroverted, but they just don’t overthink or think about others ulterior motives and I’m enamoured by people like this as well.
I feel even as a kid I had trouble making friends because I always had my own wall and was wary of others. Sometimes I felt being wary made me feel like a bad person? I would think thoughts like,”Why aren’t I as trusting and friendly as this person”. People would sense that as well and I wasn’t someone who interested them. I was always the observer, and being an observer takes me out of my elements and I’m not really “living”.
Now I have tried being vulnerable on purpose and letting my guard down to build connections. But I can see people just naturally gravitate towards those who are effortlessly vulnerable. There’s something admirable about it. I’m just not that person. I’m prudent, cautious, more cynical than optimistic. An example in film/literature. I feel like Katnis Everdeen (introspective ) and highly relate to her character while admiring Peta (less introspective) and everyone around PETA likes him as well. Similarly, I’ve weeded out bad people I’ve met and my friends always made me feel negative for seeing that others to the point I’ve thought so many times I wasn’t intuitive and able to see bad things in others.
Sometimes I wish I could just go on auto pilot. Being in “thinking” mode has helped me lots of times yes, but honestly sometimes I wish I wasn’t so I could be involved like everyone else. Maybe being so wary and cautious is actually just negative. I wish I could live life on auto pilot and just feel human for once. Being so introspective and in my head makes me feel like I’ve lost out on a lot. Wondering if anyone has ever felt like this?