are you afraid of being too happy?

I really, really understand this. I have a trauma history and I always have fought the feeling that the other shoe is going to drop so to speak.

In Buddhism, we talk about having a high life condition. When someone is happy they have a high life condition. When someone is not feeling happy they have a low life condition. The trick is to get your life condition high so that it can stay high no matter what happens.

The way that I do this is by chanting.

This is an indestructable happiness. When you are happy and it goes back and forth due to circumstances (this has happened to me so many times ) This is called relative happiness. When you are happy and are able to stay happy no matter what this is called indestructable happiness!

I am just relating your post to Buddhism the way my sect practices it.

I relate to this experience so much, thank-you!!

 

I... think I might be able to relate, and it's one of the biggest things I get down on myself (lol, not helping much there) about.

I'm not sure if I just have some deep-seeded distrust that I don't realize of others around me, or if I've just gotten into a really REALLY bad habit, but I'm definitely prone to being happy for short bursts of time, and then slipping back into emptiness or distress. It's a really vicious cycle that almost seems to snowball, and creates from what it sounds like from sookie's post, a perpetual 'low life condition' where even when you're trying to cheer up, it seems like it's just an empty effort.

That said, there was a full two weeks a little over a year back where I was not only in a perpetually good mood, but I was in an outright state of complete bliss. There was, of course, a specific trigger for that, but I honestly mark those two weeks as the happiest I've ever been that I can think of.

So, long-winded story a bit shorter, I'm definitely a case of being afraid of being too happy, I just... am not entirely sure why. I wonder if this is an INFJ thing or if there's some other underlying reason. Hmm...

 

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