I liked the last statement you made so much I am making it my signature. If you don't want your name associated with it - I'll take that off. Just let me know. Cracking your own shell is a worthy goal, hush. Falling in love will do it every time. Like I did this time. Back in 2006 I attended a group event designed to crack open people's shells(although I didn't realize that when I signed up). It's called Discovery Training. They have a website if you want to see what their mission is. Then maybe you can get an idea of what to look for in your area and capability. I agreed to do the event purely based upon a leap of intuition of mine. I somehow knew it would be a key for me...without even knowing much about the experience at all. They promised freedom from shame/guilt/fear and I would gain some Peace. It worked - because I went into it blind and leaped over the cliff....