I think so? Lol. Whats not the monkey way? Yeah I do best with repetition I think... but I struggle with the abstractness of it all, like how things represent things but they are only that in theory, lol.. its strange sometimes, but then when I finally understand it, it really, really makes sense why they do it the way they do. I just get confused, haha. It makes me feel so incompetent though!
Try to look at it from a more circumstantial and theoretical approach. The technicals aren't natural for an INFJ, so fighting through those is agonizing, and that's how it's generally taught. Just gotta make up your own story/application for the tedius stuff until it all clicks together. It's tough! Math is hard.
I always try to put it in a real world context. For example instead of thinking x, i think of something more interesting. I let it represent a flower or an ingredient to a recipe. It helped me a lot. I also almost always study math next to physics. It clicks
I agree with @Lady Jolanda. Math is a language. Just like you can't say you *know* French or Spanish because you know a handful of phrases by rote, spending a lifetime being taught math as a collection of formulas to memorize doesn't build a intuitive foundation. And when you don't use them, or communicate with them, you tend to forget. I had to go back and relearn a lot of the basics when I went back to school.