I don't know how to put words to it, but it has to do with connection. Nothing relationship wise has had any meaning lately. I did stop by and visit an INFJ friend of mine, and the way her face lit up and she said my name was priceless. But it was too brief as she was at work and was busy.
But now I just am with kids who are egocentric by definition, or adults who are egocentric by character. It's so old. I want to spend time with someone who is altruistic!