If you only knew how much I needed to hear something positive about myself! It means the world. I've been depressed for weeks now. I can usually pull myself out, but it's not happening. So I came to the place where I feel special even in a "room" full of people like me.
I know it's selfish to only show up around here when it pleases me, to make me feel better. Its not fair to only give you guys the lesser part of me. But the truth is, I need you guys right now. It would be stupid of me not to come back.
Maybe one day I can be self-assured, but for now I will accept all the love that has been given to me here! <3 If I ever feel unimportant in my life, I just need to remember you guys, or better yet, be active here! It's just sometimes, I can love too much and that gets me hurt too. So its kind of a battle inside myself (whoa an INFJ with inner conflict, who knew? >.>) and I have to be careful!
Oh, I have to be. Too much love or an inappropriate or unrequited love or just whatever, can rip my heart out and I never fully recover, each time. Some times, more than others. I'm just too weak in that area! But at least it doesn;t happen often, haha. I'd be forever crying myself to sleep.
We love you April! I hope you feel better soon. Bad things are always temporary! You will get through this! Just know that no matter what, we will support you through anything! <3 also if you ever need someone to talk to, I’m always here for you!