fyrefly | INFJ Forum

fyrefly

I am almost 20 years old, a female. I feel I am mature for my age, though I try my best not to be egotistical about that. I find that many people, especially those my own age, have a difficult time understanding me, and an even more difficult time relating to me.

Currently, my major is International Studies, but I've changed my major almost 15 times, and contemplating changing it yet again. My hobbies include language learning, photography, painting, writing, and travel. I enjoy learning about a broad range of subjects, including art, astronomy, biology, geology, history, anthropology, creative writing, languages, and geography.
Birthday
Oct 27, 1993 (Age: 30)
Biography
Being an INFJ and a type 4 enneagram, I have a tendency to be very intense and emotionally deep. I admit to having created a barrier between myself and the "real world," since most people I encounter simply don't understand me or care to understand me. I tend to spend most of my times in my own reality so I don't have to deal with the overwhelming feelings the real world causes. I understand the feelings and motivations of others, usually better than they do, and more often than not, I'm correct, or at least near correct, maybe a couple of details wrong.

My entire life I've had an overwhelming sense of not belonging. I never fit into a stereotype, clique, or group of any kind. I couldn't even describe my usual role in a group project. I was just there. This causes a struggle for me, especially on a relationship and career level. I can never figure out what I want my career to be, since I don't fit into any category. I'm not athletic, and while I'm pretty creative, I don't like the instability of the art world. I love sciences, but am awful at math and have thus far lacked the discipline to become skilled in the field. When searching for an ideal career for myself, I notice at the top of the list for INFJ's is a career in psychology, or really any career in which the INFJ is helping people. This worries me, because I don't find pleasure in helping people, and I feel this is very strange for an INFJ. I don't enjoy volunteer work, and I find other people's problems to be too difficult and overwhelming to handle without taking it personally.
In descending order, which 6 things could you never do without?
6. A goal
5. A plan
4. Learning
3. The reality I've created in my mind.
2. My parents and sister.
1. My boyfriend/soulmate.
MBTI
INFJ
Enneagram
4
Occupation
This is the one question I simply can't answer. Al