Recent content by Connor

How much of everything that happened (I gave great detail ) was just me not understanding her as an INFJ? I really kept trying . I also want to add one more thing she would be so appreciative of me it was unbelievable like praising all the things I did and how amazing and kind and considerate I...

I looked through other posts on here and usually there’s more “harsh” feedback but everyone has been so supportive of me and now that I’m starting to really think about it - like the things she said and did were really fucked up! Honestly I was being kind of delusional thinking this is okay for...

Thank you. I really love birds and like to think of them and view them a lot. I don't know if I have any more personal growth after this- I am considering just calling it quits overall, becauase I am defeated. not in a pitiful way but I just accept this loss and live the next day not trying to...

Yes they sure do. I thought it was different this time .

She told me i was trying to make a codependent dynamic and she wanted a healthy interdependent bond … seems that was placed on me too. Really another flaw I have but doesn’t it take two ?

Yeah, or I told her she overthinks and she really got upset. or the time I told her she trips out a lot and she said I must not like her. I am just realizing that she doesn't accept or "own" her negative qualities not me! I don't want to believe that people project like that to explain things...

I think every fantasy between two people is kind of created together, so yes the ideals of lover really painted that picutre a form of art and beauty and it moved me.We did really become lovers and it was transformative it made me anew and her too. I wonder if it was too much for her to handle...

I can't really figure out how to do the quotes correctly lol. So, I will go one by one. Yes, I thought maybe there was just some reason or another she would find before or after the car- I told her she finds faults and she was both astonished and offended by this. Maybe she wasn't ready- like...

Yeah I am not now . That’s true . I was so ready with her . Too bad the car blew up . I could’ve slowed down … I thought I was better after years of therapy … And not to be contradictory I was and am a loving person and like her response doesn’t change that . I am just blaming myself in a...

Like I really embraced love . We were two lovers . Meeting in naked honesty with our whole selves without trying to own or consume the other . Just fully loving one another without shame. i understand she’ll never feel the same because I wasn’t telling her about the bankruptcy right away it...

I have tried to be an embodiment of love- self-love- wrote about tried to be it- and I am so loving to people as I can be I believe love is a flame that can consume our lesser self and move into higher self. The thing is I really had turned myself into a lover and became a lover with this woman...

I really like the french little prince quote that you have. I just miss this woman. I want love to redeem me.

What can I do to try and make the relationship rejuvenate? I haven't spoken this week. I keep waking up shaking or crying or like shivering and I live in a very hot place lol