When I started feeling myself going under I got scared and gave up. I'm glad I didn't do it too because the people on the stage were acting insane. I would have died from embarrassment.
Several of my friends at the live show started to go under and got scared as well, and forced themselves out of it. Some got on stage too but got booted quickly. However I started to go under right away and I was like "woooooah, this is freaky! and... cool! *let's go*" I have this inate feeling deep down in me where I just want to let go and completly lose control (likely because I need to constantly have control). So part of me wanted to I guess.
Now this is a KEY point: I am so easily embaressed it isn't even funny. But it wasn't a factor, and I didn't feel it, let me explain what I did first.
This is some of the stuff I did on stage: Thought music was coming out of my shoe. I yelled a girl because she was told to forget the number 7, and and threw her off the chair at one point. I was told that I thought I was a contestent in amercias next top model and was told to dance on stage with a pink boa. And oh man did I dance. I went all out and just completly threw myself everywhere. I remember everyone laughing hysterical, and I thought it was all of us (remember I have no visual memory). At the end I felt him place a feather in my shirt. "clearly he was the star, I am gonna leave him this as a present" and later leared that I was the point of laughter. At the end we were sent back to the audience and my suggestion was to shout "I am the oscar meyer weiner!" when ever my school name was said, as loud as I could. And oh man did I shout it.
My friends told me afterwords that I was incredibly animated and expressive, way more them the others. This makes sense to me because through out all of this it was like what I want to do, and how I feel inside most of the time was allowed to escape. and the world could see it. At the end of the show he also told us that people who are easily hypnotized are intelligent, creative, highly imaginative, idealistic, and appear very reserved. All of these apply to me. My friends all patted me on the shoulder when he said this (I was still under).
Through out all of this, at no moment did I feel the slightest bit of embaressment. It was a very strange feeling. It was like I was watching myself doing all of the things I was doing. I knew I could get back in control if I wanted to, but I didn't care. Embaressment melted away from me. Looking back I think; god I should have felt horribly embaressed, but I didn't. In the moment though, I didn't feel it.
Because of all of this, and the fact that I am so easily sent under, I will never do a home hypnosis thing created by someone else. It could flat out be dangerous. I think I have sent myself into self hypnosis states in the past, but that's it.
