Yeah .. always
I was asked to talk about an experience I had to my whole batch in school and the batch before us ... I wanted to cry because I didn't want to but it's a religious thing (the one I had to talk about) ... so I just went anyways. At first I was extremely shy and I wanted to hide my face
and all that but I don't have a choice so because I showed up so when the commentator called my name
(another thing I fear.. I just DON'T like people calling my name in public hehe... I just feel so known.. and my name is reallyyy unique so... if someone would know my name, and would search for example like facebook or twitter or whatever.. there's only one name like that..and it's mine...so I usually change my name bwahahaha) so anyways.... yeah she called my name and I had to stand up
(ughh standing up while everyone was sitting down
) and I went to the front... I kept on stuttering when I first spoke but then.. I got comfortable and I just spoke my heart out and I cried.. hehe.... I had to share something PERSONAL .. and when I do.. I always cry.
..but since I cried, I couldn't care anymore..so I just kept on talking
I cried IN PUBLIC that much
<-- actually, I don't mind crying in public I just don't want them to know the REASON
So yeah I do have an extreme fear of being known
I don't like standing out, though I like being different A LOT... I just don't like .... well I can't explain what I don't like
hahaha...
I also don't post pictures of myself alone
... hehehe whenever my friends post pictures of me in facebook or whatever site, I tell them not to tag me or if I can't tell them no to tag me, then
.... I have no choice
. Also, i adjust my settings so that I would be unsearchable hehe
I really don't like to be looked at
. Whenever I walk, I avoid people ALWAYS. I hate drawing attention.
I guess you should show up
you'll get used to it once you're talking already. you'll get the flow of it. How about try going earlier than the others and just feel the place first, adjust to the environment so that you'll be more comfortable when it's time for you to talk