Hey All,
So I (M23 / ESFJ) suddenly out of nowhere experienced a friend breakup with an INFJ (F/22). I'll call this girl Elizabeth. It was quite shocking, and I am trying to figure out what happened exactly. For a matter of fact, I wanted to let you know that I am mildly autistic and sometimes do have trouble understanding social cues, and rarely ever even notice people's body language at all.
So a little bit of a background, I actually met Elizabeth at a one off conference in a neutral location that is thousands of miles away from where both of us used to live. We were randomly sitting next to each other in a session and had a lot of side chatters. Nothing super crazy, but just a lot of side talks during the session. Now I do want to admit, that I was romantically attracted to her. She was really pretty and also had such a nice personality from what I saw. That being said, I did not act on it or go for it, because I felt it would be creepy to do this too soon. She was sitting next to her best friend on the other side that we will call Sarah. She honestly came to the conference with a whole friend group, and I just went by myself. I did ask Elizabeth and Sarah if they'd be down to get lunch together and they said they had plans but perhaps dinner. I said sure, and THEY ASKED ME if I had instagram so we could keep in touch and coordinate dinner which I gave to them. We didn't end up getting dinner together that night as we both ended up being busy with our own things that were conference related, but I told them over instagram text that it was so nice to meet them and to feel free to keep in touch.
About a week after the conference, I texted the group chat with Elizabeth and Sarah to ask how they were doing and how they've been since the conference. I didn't get a response and kind of forgot about them after a while. Anyways, coincidentally, I was job hunting and trying to move to a different place in the country and started to get a lot of job offers in a city that was like 2500 miles away from me, and that was actually the city that Sarah and Elizabeth actually lived in. I forgot about it for a while, but 10 days later, Elizabeth actually responded to my text, apologizing for being late and saying she's a horrible texter, but wanted to make sure to get back to me. We had a little bit of an intimate conversation over text and discovered that Elizabeth and I both had a thing in common where in the past, we struggled with depression and both almost committed suicide and went to the hospital to get mentally evaluated. Both suicidal instances were before we met and knew each other, but it was a bond that we had in common. I also mentioned that I might be moving to their town as I got a few job offers there, and they both told me it would be so exciting to see me in their town. Sarah and Elisabeth are both involved in a non profit religious organization that ministers and invests in college students, as student leaders, and Sarah told me that I should really get connected and join their community organization if I end up moving.
Now I was still recovering from being suicidal myself for other reasons and was looking for a completely new friend group and support system. I think I got a little over-excited by the interactions with Sarah and Elizabeth, and maybe placed high / unreasonable expectations on a future relationship with them and their community, and exaggerated what they said in my mind a little bit. Again, I also had romantic feelings for Elizabeth and was hoping to maybe at least give a shot at dating her, but I WAS NOT expecting that that she would be interested in that. Anyway, I was getting a lot of job offers in their town, so I made the decision to relocate, but I have to admit that I think my romantic feelings for Elizabeth and hopes for a new community / friendships played a bigger part in my decision making than I even realized myself. Anyways, I didn't really talk to Elizabeth again before relocating, but I reached out to a guy in his late 20s who is the head of the organization / community that Sarah and Elizabeth are involved in. We'll call him Mike. I was asking Mike about getting involved as a volunteer, but he immediately told me that they already have too many volunteers right now and do not have the capacity to take on anymore. I then asked him about just attending events and participating in the community, but he said that it wasn't a good fit for me because the community is focused on ministering to college students and I just graduated so I'm a young professional, even though its only like a year age gap. Honestly this was extremely disappointing to me and made me kind of upset, but I was hoping maybe I could at least find a way to be partially involved when I get there, since Sarah recommended it. Not to mention, Mike never met me before, so I was a complete stranger to him when I reached out. Sarah recommended I reach out to him by the way and gave me his number, so it probably didn't come as a complete surprise to Mike, but I was definitely a stranger to him. Mike did say that there are plenty of other communities that he'd recommend I look into, but I honestly wasn't interested in any other community. He also recommended a few churches to attend as we are all religious people.
Anyways, so I relocate and arrive, and pick one of the churches that Mike recommended I check out to attend. Coincidentally the one I picked happens to be the church that Mike goes to and also the same church that Sarah and Elizabeth go to as well. I did not expect to see them, but I did, and it was an amazing surprise. So I see Elizabeth and it was a surprise for both of us and we talked quite a bit. We didn't talk for that long but it was nice to finally reconnect in person.
A few days later, Elizabeth reaches out to me randomly on instagram and tells me how she was thinking about me wanting to be invested in religious community, but the community that she serves in isn't best fit because it ministers to college students and I'm not in the same season of life. She is the INFJ and was so nice, and just said that my phase of life doesn't align and there's nothing wrong with that. She was asking around, trying to find good communities for me, and told me a couple friends of hers to get in touch with and people to get connected to to find community. All that to say, with me having feelings for Elizabeth, I freaked out that she texted me first and got really excited. I started to be very vulnerable with Elizabeth over text and told her that I'm a little different due to me having autism, and have a different perspective on communities. We decided to talk in person after church the next week so we can get a better understanding of each other. The talk I had with Elizabeth after church went so well, and I felt we already built a close bond. I was telling her that as well with other friends of hers, and she said that she thinks its great that I have connected with her and her friends, but warned me that they are very busy and highly invested in their community and do not have a lot of time, but they would be happy to see me from time to time and interact at church, etc. It felt like a very emotional close bond we created even though it was only the third time that Elizabeth and I hung out.
Shortly after that, there was a huge end of year event happening with their community, and I texted Mike asking if I can come. He told me No because it's made for college students, and there would be better ministries / communities for me to invest in. In all honesty, my main reason for wanting to be part of that community so badly was because of Elizabeth who I liked, Sarah, and a few other friends that they introduced me to. I wanted a deeper friendship with all of them. I think I was a little obsessive about wanting them to be my primary friends, etc. Anyways, I did not see Elizabeth for a while as she was traveling a bunch. However, about a month later, I finally saw Elizabeth again at church and asked if I could sit with her and her friends. She was like: "Of Course, you are always welcome." in a very genuine way, so I was pretty sure she was serious.
After that day, Elizabeth, and I set up a time to hangout outside of church along with a 55 year old lady that she introduced me to to get connected here. I also asked again about attending another community event, and I think Elizabeth kind of felt that my desire for wanting to be involved in their community was starting to get a little obsessive, but said No in a very nice way, and I respected that. Anyways so the three of us hung out and it was so meaningful and deep, and it was one of the most enjoyable times of my life. I was going to ask Elizabeth out soon, but wasn't sure of her interest. She was often slightly flirtatious at church, etc, but she is a very touchy feely / affectionate person in general with everyone, and I did NOT feel like her being flirtatious was unique to me only. I heard that INFJ's can be like this as well. When the three of us hung out, she was talking about her ex and how she broke up because she wants to be single for the near future. Not necessarily forever, but she said for now, she wants to stay single and not have the distraction of a relationship. Therefore, I made my decision to NOT ask her out, and completely let go of the idea of dating her. It was hard, but I thought I'll try to just be content with a good friendship, and I really loved the way the friendship was going.
Anyways, because things were feeling so good with Elizabeth and other friends that she introduced me to, my desire for really wanting to be part of her ministry / community kept growing and growing, because I really just wanted more time with those people. I was honestly chasing all the time I could get with those people because they were amazing. A week later, Elizabeth and I talked on the phone, and I admitted to her that I have been very hurt by Mike's decision and the whole thing about them saying No to me being part of the community, etc. Elizabeth was very understanding, and really heard me out but encouraged me not to take it personally and to try and find other friends and another community to be invested in as well even though it might be difficult. I then thought of a crazy loophole. My idea was to take 1-2 classes at the university with a non-degree seeking major so I can become a college student and be part of their community. I proposed this idea to Elizabeth, Mike, and other friends she introduced me to. Elizabeth told me this: "Honestly, I am really worried about you, because I think your idea of this whole community has started to become very unhealthy, and its likely not everything you expect it to be. I am worried about your obsession with being involved in our community so much. I want you to really think about this and evaluate the way you are thinking here." She was very kind, but I gotta admit, I think it was starting to get old and really obsessive about wanting to be part of their community / ministry.
A few weeks later, Mike told me that I was making Elizabeth and quite a few other people very uncomfortable with my persistence in regards to the community and being kind of an overbearing friend when they are quite busy. Mike himself even said that he was starting to get uncomfortable with my desire to join the community / ministry and it was just getting old and out of hand. He also was really weirded out and concerned when I talked about the loophole of taking 1-2 college classes with the main purpose of being involved in the ministry. He basically was like: "What's going on? Why do you want to be part of this ministry so badly when it's not a good fit for your season of life?"
Anyways, Elizabeth wrote me a text shortly after that it made her uncomfortable with the way that I persisted about wanting to join her ministry, and a deepening friendship with her one on one. The ministry didn't surprise me, but the deepening friendship really did, because I felt she initiated a lot of that? Unless she was referring to being obsessive about being very close to her by trying to join the ministry, or she might've caught onto me having feelings for her. Before then, I never felt that there was any rejection or even any cues I can think of to my advances with her as a friend. Maybe I was going too fast or rather "coming on too strong" and not being very natural?
Elizabeth set some stricter boundaries after that and she said that she doesn't want me texting her, calling her, or sitting with her at church, but she'd be happy to say Hi and have a short conversation anytime we run into each other and see each other.
Anyways was this an INFJ door slam? I was really shocked by this. Do you think I might ever have a chance of reconciliation with Elizabeth? After she sent me that text, I completely ghosted her and haven't seen her since, and was kind of intentionally trying to avoid her a little bit. I think she might've felt smothered and needs space, so I don't plan to do anything at the moment, but do you think there might be any chance of reconciliation in about a year or so? Or did I get completely doorslammed. INFJ's please help me understand the situation better.
Also on another note, I plan on relocating again to a different area within the next few months, so if we do reconcile, it'll be a long distance friendship, but it would still mean a lot to me.
So what did I do that really pissed off Elizabeth? She always seemed so kind, and I don't believe I took advantage of her or anything. I would often try to help her and even ask her about her life and how she's doing, and she'd answer very sincerely. Did I break her trust or something? Or did she maybe catch on that I had feelings for her and wanted some distance because of that?
P.S. It wasn't just Elizabeth, but I think my obsession with getting involved in the specific ministry / community was making quite a few other leaders in the ministry uncomfortable being friends with me. I still don't get how that in itself could cause issues in a personal friendship though. Also I never actually attended any events or tried anything, these were just ideas I was trying to propose. I might've been pushy about the ministry though.
So I (M23 / ESFJ) suddenly out of nowhere experienced a friend breakup with an INFJ (F/22). I'll call this girl Elizabeth. It was quite shocking, and I am trying to figure out what happened exactly. For a matter of fact, I wanted to let you know that I am mildly autistic and sometimes do have trouble understanding social cues, and rarely ever even notice people's body language at all.
So a little bit of a background, I actually met Elizabeth at a one off conference in a neutral location that is thousands of miles away from where both of us used to live. We were randomly sitting next to each other in a session and had a lot of side chatters. Nothing super crazy, but just a lot of side talks during the session. Now I do want to admit, that I was romantically attracted to her. She was really pretty and also had such a nice personality from what I saw. That being said, I did not act on it or go for it, because I felt it would be creepy to do this too soon. She was sitting next to her best friend on the other side that we will call Sarah. She honestly came to the conference with a whole friend group, and I just went by myself. I did ask Elizabeth and Sarah if they'd be down to get lunch together and they said they had plans but perhaps dinner. I said sure, and THEY ASKED ME if I had instagram so we could keep in touch and coordinate dinner which I gave to them. We didn't end up getting dinner together that night as we both ended up being busy with our own things that were conference related, but I told them over instagram text that it was so nice to meet them and to feel free to keep in touch.
About a week after the conference, I texted the group chat with Elizabeth and Sarah to ask how they were doing and how they've been since the conference. I didn't get a response and kind of forgot about them after a while. Anyways, coincidentally, I was job hunting and trying to move to a different place in the country and started to get a lot of job offers in a city that was like 2500 miles away from me, and that was actually the city that Sarah and Elizabeth actually lived in. I forgot about it for a while, but 10 days later, Elizabeth actually responded to my text, apologizing for being late and saying she's a horrible texter, but wanted to make sure to get back to me. We had a little bit of an intimate conversation over text and discovered that Elizabeth and I both had a thing in common where in the past, we struggled with depression and both almost committed suicide and went to the hospital to get mentally evaluated. Both suicidal instances were before we met and knew each other, but it was a bond that we had in common. I also mentioned that I might be moving to their town as I got a few job offers there, and they both told me it would be so exciting to see me in their town. Sarah and Elisabeth are both involved in a non profit religious organization that ministers and invests in college students, as student leaders, and Sarah told me that I should really get connected and join their community organization if I end up moving.
Now I was still recovering from being suicidal myself for other reasons and was looking for a completely new friend group and support system. I think I got a little over-excited by the interactions with Sarah and Elizabeth, and maybe placed high / unreasonable expectations on a future relationship with them and their community, and exaggerated what they said in my mind a little bit. Again, I also had romantic feelings for Elizabeth and was hoping to maybe at least give a shot at dating her, but I WAS NOT expecting that that she would be interested in that. Anyway, I was getting a lot of job offers in their town, so I made the decision to relocate, but I have to admit that I think my romantic feelings for Elizabeth and hopes for a new community / friendships played a bigger part in my decision making than I even realized myself. Anyways, I didn't really talk to Elizabeth again before relocating, but I reached out to a guy in his late 20s who is the head of the organization / community that Sarah and Elizabeth are involved in. We'll call him Mike. I was asking Mike about getting involved as a volunteer, but he immediately told me that they already have too many volunteers right now and do not have the capacity to take on anymore. I then asked him about just attending events and participating in the community, but he said that it wasn't a good fit for me because the community is focused on ministering to college students and I just graduated so I'm a young professional, even though its only like a year age gap. Honestly this was extremely disappointing to me and made me kind of upset, but I was hoping maybe I could at least find a way to be partially involved when I get there, since Sarah recommended it. Not to mention, Mike never met me before, so I was a complete stranger to him when I reached out. Sarah recommended I reach out to him by the way and gave me his number, so it probably didn't come as a complete surprise to Mike, but I was definitely a stranger to him. Mike did say that there are plenty of other communities that he'd recommend I look into, but I honestly wasn't interested in any other community. He also recommended a few churches to attend as we are all religious people.
Anyways, so I relocate and arrive, and pick one of the churches that Mike recommended I check out to attend. Coincidentally the one I picked happens to be the church that Mike goes to and also the same church that Sarah and Elizabeth go to as well. I did not expect to see them, but I did, and it was an amazing surprise. So I see Elizabeth and it was a surprise for both of us and we talked quite a bit. We didn't talk for that long but it was nice to finally reconnect in person.
A few days later, Elizabeth reaches out to me randomly on instagram and tells me how she was thinking about me wanting to be invested in religious community, but the community that she serves in isn't best fit because it ministers to college students and I'm not in the same season of life. She is the INFJ and was so nice, and just said that my phase of life doesn't align and there's nothing wrong with that. She was asking around, trying to find good communities for me, and told me a couple friends of hers to get in touch with and people to get connected to to find community. All that to say, with me having feelings for Elizabeth, I freaked out that she texted me first and got really excited. I started to be very vulnerable with Elizabeth over text and told her that I'm a little different due to me having autism, and have a different perspective on communities. We decided to talk in person after church the next week so we can get a better understanding of each other. The talk I had with Elizabeth after church went so well, and I felt we already built a close bond. I was telling her that as well with other friends of hers, and she said that she thinks its great that I have connected with her and her friends, but warned me that they are very busy and highly invested in their community and do not have a lot of time, but they would be happy to see me from time to time and interact at church, etc. It felt like a very emotional close bond we created even though it was only the third time that Elizabeth and I hung out.
Shortly after that, there was a huge end of year event happening with their community, and I texted Mike asking if I can come. He told me No because it's made for college students, and there would be better ministries / communities for me to invest in. In all honesty, my main reason for wanting to be part of that community so badly was because of Elizabeth who I liked, Sarah, and a few other friends that they introduced me to. I wanted a deeper friendship with all of them. I think I was a little obsessive about wanting them to be my primary friends, etc. Anyways, I did not see Elizabeth for a while as she was traveling a bunch. However, about a month later, I finally saw Elizabeth again at church and asked if I could sit with her and her friends. She was like: "Of Course, you are always welcome." in a very genuine way, so I was pretty sure she was serious.
After that day, Elizabeth, and I set up a time to hangout outside of church along with a 55 year old lady that she introduced me to to get connected here. I also asked again about attending another community event, and I think Elizabeth kind of felt that my desire for wanting to be involved in their community was starting to get a little obsessive, but said No in a very nice way, and I respected that. Anyways so the three of us hung out and it was so meaningful and deep, and it was one of the most enjoyable times of my life. I was going to ask Elizabeth out soon, but wasn't sure of her interest. She was often slightly flirtatious at church, etc, but she is a very touchy feely / affectionate person in general with everyone, and I did NOT feel like her being flirtatious was unique to me only. I heard that INFJ's can be like this as well. When the three of us hung out, she was talking about her ex and how she broke up because she wants to be single for the near future. Not necessarily forever, but she said for now, she wants to stay single and not have the distraction of a relationship. Therefore, I made my decision to NOT ask her out, and completely let go of the idea of dating her. It was hard, but I thought I'll try to just be content with a good friendship, and I really loved the way the friendship was going.
Anyways, because things were feeling so good with Elizabeth and other friends that she introduced me to, my desire for really wanting to be part of her ministry / community kept growing and growing, because I really just wanted more time with those people. I was honestly chasing all the time I could get with those people because they were amazing. A week later, Elizabeth and I talked on the phone, and I admitted to her that I have been very hurt by Mike's decision and the whole thing about them saying No to me being part of the community, etc. Elizabeth was very understanding, and really heard me out but encouraged me not to take it personally and to try and find other friends and another community to be invested in as well even though it might be difficult. I then thought of a crazy loophole. My idea was to take 1-2 classes at the university with a non-degree seeking major so I can become a college student and be part of their community. I proposed this idea to Elizabeth, Mike, and other friends she introduced me to. Elizabeth told me this: "Honestly, I am really worried about you, because I think your idea of this whole community has started to become very unhealthy, and its likely not everything you expect it to be. I am worried about your obsession with being involved in our community so much. I want you to really think about this and evaluate the way you are thinking here." She was very kind, but I gotta admit, I think it was starting to get old and really obsessive about wanting to be part of their community / ministry.
A few weeks later, Mike told me that I was making Elizabeth and quite a few other people very uncomfortable with my persistence in regards to the community and being kind of an overbearing friend when they are quite busy. Mike himself even said that he was starting to get uncomfortable with my desire to join the community / ministry and it was just getting old and out of hand. He also was really weirded out and concerned when I talked about the loophole of taking 1-2 college classes with the main purpose of being involved in the ministry. He basically was like: "What's going on? Why do you want to be part of this ministry so badly when it's not a good fit for your season of life?"
Anyways, Elizabeth wrote me a text shortly after that it made her uncomfortable with the way that I persisted about wanting to join her ministry, and a deepening friendship with her one on one. The ministry didn't surprise me, but the deepening friendship really did, because I felt she initiated a lot of that? Unless she was referring to being obsessive about being very close to her by trying to join the ministry, or she might've caught onto me having feelings for her. Before then, I never felt that there was any rejection or even any cues I can think of to my advances with her as a friend. Maybe I was going too fast or rather "coming on too strong" and not being very natural?
Elizabeth set some stricter boundaries after that and she said that she doesn't want me texting her, calling her, or sitting with her at church, but she'd be happy to say Hi and have a short conversation anytime we run into each other and see each other.
Anyways was this an INFJ door slam? I was really shocked by this. Do you think I might ever have a chance of reconciliation with Elizabeth? After she sent me that text, I completely ghosted her and haven't seen her since, and was kind of intentionally trying to avoid her a little bit. I think she might've felt smothered and needs space, so I don't plan to do anything at the moment, but do you think there might be any chance of reconciliation in about a year or so? Or did I get completely doorslammed. INFJ's please help me understand the situation better.
Also on another note, I plan on relocating again to a different area within the next few months, so if we do reconcile, it'll be a long distance friendship, but it would still mean a lot to me.
So what did I do that really pissed off Elizabeth? She always seemed so kind, and I don't believe I took advantage of her or anything. I would often try to help her and even ask her about her life and how she's doing, and she'd answer very sincerely. Did I break her trust or something? Or did she maybe catch on that I had feelings for her and wanted some distance because of that?
P.S. It wasn't just Elizabeth, but I think my obsession with getting involved in the specific ministry / community was making quite a few other leaders in the ministry uncomfortable being friends with me. I still don't get how that in itself could cause issues in a personal friendship though. Also I never actually attended any events or tried anything, these were just ideas I was trying to propose. I might've been pushy about the ministry though.