Yeah I feel that way too. I was being like that. I was tested before as INTJ, when I was in 10th grade or less than a year ago. I was being curious about myself that why did I do this/that. I wanted to figure out my true identity. Actually MBTI let me know this, something on me. It helps me to understand people and myself. Honestly, you didn't do wrong. Your just being true to yourself. Let's not count our mistakes and instead count what we have cherished for.. No one is perfect. I admire your honesty.. But let bygones be bygones..