Blog entries by Jill Hives | INFJ Forum

Blog entries by Jill Hives

  1. I have been utterly sucked up by life and drama and moving. I have thought of this place often. I hope y'all are doing good!
  2. I have been utterly sucked up by life and drama and moving. I have thought of this place often. I hope y'all are doing good!
  3. Long time no talk...not sure if anyone here remembers me. We will see!Life is insane. Two kids younger than 5 keeping me very busy.I have been through some shit. Life is weird. I am weird. I am starting to be okay with that. NThings are as good or bad as you let them be. At least, in my...
  4. I am definitely in one of those horridly depressed states. It's hard to get out of bed or see the good in anything that is happening around me. I have been going on walks, but mostly I have been sleeping.I wish I had the will to do more. Being conscious is extremely painful right now. I know...
  5. ...and yet so many. I am simmering with all kinds of feelings. I am living with my parents again as of today. I don't know if I mentioned on here, but for a few weeks I was living in Port Orchard, with a very strange couple of ladies. I went with an acquaintence of mine, hoping it would be...
  6. He loves me and he misses me. I have wished for those words for a couple months now and gave up hope. But there they are. My heart wasn't wrong after all.Now...what to do with this...there are things to consider. He has offered to help me get back. He says the condition is that I move into my...
  7. My life is quickly changing and it feels entirely uncertain. It is a strange journey I am on right now, that is for sure. My parents received some bad news. They are being sued by Visa and had all of the contents of their bank account confiscated. Things are on very shaky ground here. My...
  8. I can't handle being away from my kids. It's just killing me. I cry every single day.I made this choice because I felt like it was the best thing for us all. I keep doubting it. I don't know what is right. All I know is that my heart feels like it is split into tiny pieces and there is only...
  9. There are so many things I want to say to you. So many things that I want you to answer for. So many things that you did or said to me, that I want explanations for. I want to hear your feelings. I want to know what was in your heart. But I am starting to think that it is just a shriveled black...
  10. Still adore new guy. Also absolutely terrified.It's been too good. He has been extremely intense, and I also feel like perhaps he assumes a lot about how I really feel, when right now, I don't even know. I've told him all of this. He knows where we stand. And yet I am left feeling like he...
  11. This guy...this Adam. He is so amazing he makes me cry. Is this a dream? If I pinch myself will I wake up?I woke up to find a picture of a gorgeous sunrise that he took when he got off work and a message from him.[IMG] "I saw it and immediately thought of you, and how I wanted to see it...
  12. Screw the hot brothers, someone else even better came along. We knew each other in high school actually, and fell out of contact, but reconnected pretty recently.His personality is making him the most appealing of all three of the possible men available to me since I have been home. I don't...
  13. A pocket full of rye...I decided to share a very fudged up bad recording of a song I just jammed out today. Turn down volume, I breathed into the mic twice and didn't realize.. :PI've never posted any of my singing on here and thought someone might like to hear it I guess....
  14. The decision has been made. I am not going back to Canada, and husband and I are separating for reals. We are doing so with the intention to move on and proceed to a divorce.Given our current situation and what seems best for the children, I am going to let him have full custody. Heart is...
  15. There are a lot of things I need to keep reminding myself of to keep things in perspective. I have come so close to changing my mind multiple times, even when all my friends say that the best thing you can do for an abusive relationship is to end it. I keep fighting it because there is this part...