My questions have to with certain spiritual and existential concepts/ideas, so I'm not sure if they will make any sense to you at all. What is the motivation for spiritual awakening? if I (or we) consciously work towards awakening, will this benefit the whole? It seems that all suffering is a result of separation, but without the separation (and suffering in this 3rd density dream world) there would be no creation of forms. Without the creation of forms on the 3rd dimension there would be no anchors for our higher dimensional existence. If all separations are transcended and all sufferings are eliminated, there would be no creations and no forms. Then, bang! the manifested universe disappears, the big bang starts again and separation starts again so that God can carry on experience itself. What goes up must come back down, all seems pretty meaningless, even if I work towards enlightenment to benefit humanity, it seems this will add up to nothing for the whole in the ultimate sense as everything will have to start all over somehow. So why should I bother to become awakened if nothing really matters in the end? I've started to recognize the higher truth of oneness and see every being as the manifestation of the one source. At times I'd feel such compassion, I really want to have the motivation to alleviate my own sufferings and that of the humanity, but these questions still seem like a block to me. if you feel that you understand please do share your thoughts! Thanks!