I just opened a really really big can of words for myself... http://www.ted.com/talks/dan_ariely_asks_are_we_in_control_of_our_own_decisions.html This talk explains how our decision making process is easily influenced by external circumstances, and by what choices are presented to us, even if the choices are highly undesirable. It's scary in a way to see how easily influenced people can be. Even more unneriving, is I could see in myself how I would have said one thing over another depending on what was presented. Needless to say it was quite upsetting to realise this. The reason I say I opened a can of worms for myself... Is because now I have to fix this. Once I learn about some kind of innefficency of the mind and emotions, I become extremely conscious of it, and will begin to work on it. The problem is, this seems very difficult to surmount, if not impossible. I must try though. Guess I can welcome myself to some more internal pain!