Hi everyone, I recently found this website and it's been great learning that there are people out there like me.
I don't know if this is an INFJ problem or just a human problem but I really need to talk about it because it's consuming my mind.
About a year ago, I re-connected with an ex-bf (first love). That has been going well and we were pretty steady friends through last year. I recently met up with him and found out that he's going through some rough times now and this is in turn making me unhappy. I'm worried about him. I've also come to realize that I still love him. But there's nothing to do about it because (1) he's married and (2) even if he weren't, the last time we were together, the attempt nearly killed us both, i.e., I don't think we are right for eachother.
I hate the fact that my mind even thought of #2 given #1. I hate that I have all these emotions that I can neither do anything about nor make sense of.
I feel like I've moved on from him and the love I have now is the kind of love anyone would have for a first love. But on the other hand, I do still find him physically attractive, and when I think of that, I feel extremely guilty because he is married. I really value our friendship so I don't want to let it go but I don't want to have these feelings.
I'm not sure if I have a question but I really needed to let it out. Any thoughts would be appreciated. Thanks.
I don't know if this is an INFJ problem or just a human problem but I really need to talk about it because it's consuming my mind.
About a year ago, I re-connected with an ex-bf (first love). That has been going well and we were pretty steady friends through last year. I recently met up with him and found out that he's going through some rough times now and this is in turn making me unhappy. I'm worried about him. I've also come to realize that I still love him. But there's nothing to do about it because (1) he's married and (2) even if he weren't, the last time we were together, the attempt nearly killed us both, i.e., I don't think we are right for eachother.
I hate the fact that my mind even thought of #2 given #1. I hate that I have all these emotions that I can neither do anything about nor make sense of.
I feel like I've moved on from him and the love I have now is the kind of love anyone would have for a first love. But on the other hand, I do still find him physically attractive, and when I think of that, I feel extremely guilty because he is married. I really value our friendship so I don't want to let it go but I don't want to have these feelings.
I'm not sure if I have a question but I really needed to let it out. Any thoughts would be appreciated. Thanks.