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Am I the only INFJ that has experimented with drugs?

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Hello, to give everyone some background: I'm currently 23 and on the verge of graduating with a bachelor degree in computer science. I grew up with an uncle who was more like my brother and he was pretty extroverted which in the past made me confused about why I wanted to be alone and play video games in my room. I was able to mimic the extroverted personality a little bit but not fully. I was abused as a child and teenager, physically and mentally, and I believe this is why drugs became interesting to me at a time in my life. I still drink at the moment and enjoy smoking weed from time to time. Weed gives me anxiety sometimes though. If I'm with people it brings on a great deal of anxiety, however if I'm alone it can be very serene for me. I'm also a musician so when I listen to music on weed it's rather enlightening in the sense that I can hear all of the elements that I wasn't hearing when I was sober. Besides what I have mentioned, I have tried cocaine, LSD, psilocybin, xanax and various psychedelic research chemicals (not too many). My experiences with everything is typically very bad aside from mushrooms that I took multiple times but was great ONE time. I'm always very anxious when I take drugs. Since I have began my experimentation (and ended it) I have had PTSD which is a major factor in the reason that I chose to begin. As I said before, I was abused as a child. My mother hit me in the head with a cup when I was 8 years old and almost killed me. So... I've given you all the reasoning, or at least why I believe I have engaged in my experimentation, and I would like to know if any other INFJs have been interested in drugs.
If you have, if you will, please give a bit of background about why you chose to do them, the drugs you have done and your experience with each.
 
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You are probably the only person who has ever done drugs
 
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I am so very sure that you are not alone. LOL. Saw some otherwise brilliant kids get kicked out of college because the drug lifestyle was more alluring than heading to class or bothering to learn.

Personally, I did not. I grew up taking enough prescription drugs as it was and it seemed that breathing became optional and was for the lucky.
My first boyfriend would smoke weed daily and asked me if I didn't like to get high. I said, "I get my high off of music" (and I still do.) He looked at me as though I had two heads and continued puffing on his roach.
 
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I love experimenting but when it comes to drugs I'm like:

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Google ”MAPS MDMA PTSD”

I had a talk with my 10-year old daughter today about drugs as we listened to psytrance. She asked me with a serious face, ”Dad, have you ever taken drugs?” I laughted and said that sure, many times but I do not call them drugs, I call them medicine.” We ended up discussing about the difference between drugs and medicine and also what makes people to abuse any kind of substances.

I do not think that any substances are an answer to anything but they are great tools for questioning, especially psychoactive ones. They can show us where the problems are so that we can deal with them and rewire our thinking patterns. The hardest part is to integrate the insights that one has during the trips. A skillful therapist or psychopomp can help you to digest the experience. If it just about the fireworks, you will miss the beneficial opportunity to heal and grow as an individual.

I like the sober state of mind but occasionally I trip just to check myself and to pay attention to where I am aheading in my life.

Hope you find your tools to heal your PTSD!
 
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Hello there. Im a 33yo female INFJ. I believe I sought out drugs for most of my life from a few things. 1 being abused as a child and young adult2 not knowing what inter and intra personal intelligence was and how much it plays a part in who I am. I've tried a list of drugs and they all were fun and worth it in the moment but afterwards some of then made me completely unstable. I only smoke green nowadays with the only downside of getting anxiety from time to time. It's not as bad as it used to be.
 
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Hey @crunchymane – As @BritNi pointed out, there is another thread about INFJs and drug use that would probably be helpful for you. INFJ or not, your experience is relatable for a lot of people. I know people with similar stories. I know how hard it can be to open up on a forum about personal stuff, so cheers to you.

It sounds like you have a lot to work through. I hope you're choosing more constructive ways of coping now.
 
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Hey @crunchymane . Woo, drugs. I had some too. Mushrooms are definitely fun, I had them just once though. I also tried some psychedelic thing which I don't even know what it was...it made me dance with trees...fun. I took ecstasy...cocaine, opium, weed...uhm...and other things probably. I also took xanax, but that was because I had anxiety, it was a prescription drug...The worse for me is weed, it makes me sick. Anyway, there are various reasons as to why I took them. Curiosity, wanting to face my subconscious, being able to act socially...getting me out of apathy...impulsivity, self destructive behaviour.
a little thing I could say out of my experience is...there are better ways to do what you can do with drugs. You seriously want to try psychedelics because you genuinely want to learn something about yourself? Find a shaman, someone who could guide you through it and give you good stuff. That's probably the only use of drugs that makes sense in my opinion, unless you use a modest amount of good weed to relax or whatever...I would say that it's almost like drinking a glass of wine. Otherwise it's all harmful shit. We are much more delicate and complex than we think, and there is already enough in our lifes that can seriously mess up with our heads.
I don't even smoke(cigarettes) or drink anymore because I realised the enormous effect that even those "light" substances have on me.
But I understand the fascination very well...
 
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INFJ's can be extremely sensitive... Any "thing" you do will cause paranoia if you don't fully trust the people you are with. If you are with people who have a good feel to you, you will have a less anxious experience and a more enjoyable experience... But uh..

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I have never had a bad experience with psychedelics, not a single one.
Which is curious as when salvia was still legal I tried when it was announced it was going to be made illegal.

That being said, as someone also being a victim of childhood traumatic brain injury.
After 10 years of mostly smoking, there was a need other things.

Go get a perscription for these things due to your head injury.
What you are interested in is:
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/14872203

So weed works, and depending on where you are in the world, get a perscrpition for this patent.
https://patents.google.com/patent/US20190105313A1/en
 
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I cant even bother reading all of this, but you sure are not alone. The question is what you want to achieve with them. If you want to escape yourself then no drug will help that, but if you want to understand yourself in introspect then it is all good to experiment. I dont want to say that go and have fun kid, but if you want yo understand yourself and what you want from life, what you want to understand then use them wisely, pick a mission. I've tried lsd, psychedelics and the speedy ones to reach that point of understanding that the only work I need is my own life. Dont escape, seek understanding and purpose
 
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crunchymane said:
Weed gives me anxiety sometimes though. If I'm with people it brings on a great deal of anxiety, however if I'm alone it can be very serene for me
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When I read your thread title this comment was the first thought that came into my mind. Most of my friends smoked weed like it was air (being a musician at the time). My friends knew me pretty well and how I reacted with it. The only time I do it is when fishing by myself. This is heaven to me.

About the posting as a whole, I have no problem with people doing anything non-harmful for recreation. Most people can keep a steady job and function just fine.
 
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Been there, done that. . the thing is when the high wears off you're still you and the issues remain. They are simply an escape from reality. . .better to face your reality and process it, cause wherever you go, there you are
 
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Been there, done that. . the thing is when the high wears off you're still you and the issues remain. They are simply an escape from reality. . .better to face your reality and process it, cause wherever you go, there you are
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I haven't seen it as an escape, but a type of enhancement. When I am around people I see it as an hindrance.
 
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MoonFlier said:
I am so very sure that you are not alone. LOL. Saw some otherwise brilliant kids get kicked out of college because the drug lifestyle was more alluring than heading to class or bothering to learn.

Personally, I did not. I grew up taking enough prescription drugs as it was and it seemed that breathing became optional and was for the lucky.
My first boyfriend would smoke weed daily and asked me if I didn't like to get high. I said, "I get my high off of music" (and I still do.) He looked at me as though I had two heads and continued puffing on his roach.
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Ahh, I see. I actually grew up in a very hostile/broken household and because of that my mother wasn't very knowledgeable, enough that she didn't know that I sensitivities to certain foods (which I find to correlate with the anatomy of the INFJ) which for me happened to me milk. I'm African-American, we have a natural lactose intolerance. Being as though our bodies experience the effects of stimuli at a higher threshold than others, the lactose intolerance that my grandmother passed down to me turned into a full blown milk allergy.

I grew up with my father in prison and I believe that my mother is an INFJ too, however, she was so badly neglected by my grandparents that she became a corrupt INFJ.... I'm glad I am writing this post, because some of the tactics she used are very common of an INFJ to use when falling into toxic behavior. I feel so bad that my mom had to suffer as much as she has and still is, and I will do as much as I can to pull her out. Life is such a laugh isn't it? For me at least..
My mother has broken my heart time and time again, because everyone breaks her heart over and over again. I used to despise my mother so much because I thought she was just fucked in the head. Today I really tried to wrap my head around it and I know now what happened. I'm very in confident in affirming that she is an INFJ.

But, I started smoking weed because life was literally so horrible when milk was an integral part of my diet. I suffered from fatigue, swollen body parts, depression, EXTREME ANGER and anxiety. I also suffer from PTSD because of physical abuse that left a gash in my head at 8 years old. I'm also a music producer, I get VERYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY lit off of music every single day.
 
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