By the way... I just wanted to let you know that I believe you really are a decent person with a lot of potential. Don't let all those other INFJs get to you... they've all just got this alarm going off in their heads because someone said she had a "restraining order" without understanding the details. That's all. You're not a bad person, at worst you're a lonely one that misses their best friend.
When I was younger, back in High School or Middle School... I used to send people 5 paragraph apologies when I felt I'd offended them. What I eventually found out was that the long apologies were creeping them out more than whatever I'd done in the first place. People tend to think it's weird if you write a lot to them. As you can see from the way everyone else is responding to you, it's setting off false alarms and making them accuse you of things.